Momentum

SIGH

Writer's block. To the extreme.

I haven't been able to write much lately. Just the other day, it took me 12 hours to compose a 4 page paper. I suppose it was because I had too much to say about the topic at hand; overwhelmed much? Yeah, that was the feeling.

Anyway, today I am forcing myself. I've always been so against forced, puked-out writing... but I have no choice. I feel like a little piece of myself is somehow disappearing, fading away, melting like ice that's never to become solid in the same way again.

So here's what I have to say...

I listened to this song today, and I've listened to many songs, and it changed my life. Maybe not my life, I always seem to end up saying that when something great comes along. But yeah, anything that has the ability to strike an eerie feeling inside me... or any sign of emotion at all is a good one. Whatever good maybe... but I'll get to my perception of that later. Anyway, rather than ranting about it... I think if you're reading this post, you should give it a listen and form any inhibitions for yourself.

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=308316023

Binary Opposition. I finally found out the proper title for my perception of the world. I hate titles. I guess my perception of the world is slightly shattered now. I despise humanity for having to put titles on everything... then again, it just loops back to how I see the world.
Contrast, without contrast nothing would be in existence. What if the whole world was dubbed as "white". Just white. What would everything else be referred to? White. So what's the point? There would be no sense of communication, no such thing as the concept of "different", no sense of identity, just a false existence surrounded by dullness and lack of everything else aside from this idea of "white". Try imagining the world without contrast... you can't. I know you'd be lying if you said "Oh, yeah. It's possible. I see it in my head as I speak." To think at all requires some sort of contrast. Think right now, how do you know you "are" thinking... you'd have to know the meaning of what not thinking is... and how else would you know this? Contrast. There are only two things that can exist at this point, if you've gotten this far. You're either thinking or you're not. To know at all requires some sort of contrast. You can you say that you are indeed thinking because you know that you are not not thinking. Hmmm a bit of a confusion. Anyway, let's leave it at that.