Tuesday, November 27, 2007
... so the past transcends
i suddenly miss the past. to be honest, i never really have before. i've always been the kind to look forward to the future; oblivious of the present and forgetful of the past. there's something about this point in time, this moment in my life that makes me want to go back, almost enough to relive it all. who wants to do that? i'm blogging right now almost in a state of panic... almost as if i want some sort of time travel to be real. i want to go back to a time where just being yourself ensured genuine friendships, love, appreciation, affection, a shoulder to cry on, someone to push you on the swing, hold hands, sing songs, having good memories, a good time, satisfaction... where being yourself was enough. i think i'm approaching that so-called limit more and more; i'm beginning to find an approximate answer to why i'm still in san diego... why i've been denied of my dreams of grandeur. i think i need to reconnect. perhaps the past has a bigger role than the now and what's to come. in this way, i don't think living in the past is such a bad thing. living in the past ensures something real, something that can't be changed; permanence.
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You know, i think you have to find the so called "Grey" area. The area between light and dark, but in all actuality in your case it would be between past, present, and future.
My favorite way to see this type of situation, ironically, would be to ask myself: "What would Yoda say?"
I suppose we may never know since Yoda is a made up character and a puppet of all things.
I think he would say, if he were real, something like:
"you must learn from your past, live in the present, but be aware of the things around you and your future.
Maybe?
Maybe.
What I'm trying to say is, the past may be nice but you must give yourself an opportunity to live. To have more memories, to meet new people, to obtain new shoulders to cry on, and so on.
Oh please, You'll be fine.
You are Jenny June after all.
alex, you're so uplifting. and no that's definitely what yoda would say if it were up to me.
i find myself in a similar state of mind. blog it sister, blog it
And all day it seems we've been in between, the past and future town
We are nowhere, and it's now.
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